Selenic Soul

It has been so long since I last blogged and is already the year of 2010. So many things had happened since I last blogged. Whether is laugther, sadness, happiness, anger, dissapointment, it doesn't really matter. I shall remembered all those cherishable moment with my fellow PJIans, university mates, badminton kaki and many more.

Maybe it is time I shall put a change here once in a while. From this day forward, maybe I shall not blog about the happenings surrounding me. But more from my heart and how I feel.

It has been the past 20 years I've been living on this planet called Earth. Throughout my entire life so far, I've learned and achieved so many great and treasureable things from so many different people. I always and will accept who they are no matter what. Whether their my enemies or not, it doesn't really matter. To me, their still a friend and whether or not they treat me as theirs, the decision goes to them. What I'm trying to say here is I want to achieve something that I couldn't achieve ever since god gave me life. I believe to certain people, this is some kind of bullshit or somewhat pity me or whatever bombastic words you can come out with. As finding a best friend is STILL in my resolution list.

Throughout the years, I've been close to a lot of people, meeting new friends every month, catching up with my old friends to keep in touch with one another, hanging out with the same bunch of people who will see them at least twice a week...and many more. I enjoyed every second of it and truly appreciate to every single human being has taken their time, effort, sacrifice and so much more just for me.

However, till this very day, the category of friends that I have the most is STILL CLOSE friends. No one in this world so far understand me. Even I expressed my feelings, my soul, my situations to them, no one seems to fit in. I don't blame everyone of you for that as every person look things differently and I can't drag nor force a person into my mind and all. I'm not god for crying out loud. Think it this way, as some of you may know, I've been having brothers, sisters, darlings, honeys and all kind of nicknames in a weird family tree. Well, many of you would think is just for the fun of it as I'm close to them so I just categories them as part of the family tree. But there is a reason behind it and only a digit number of people knows it.

And everytime when I feel that I found one, I was wrong. What does it takes to find one? Are there a list of criteria to fulfill it or something? To be honest and ridicolous at the same time, I'm lost about the true meaning of Best Friend.

To conclude, one of my resolution for the year 2010:

HAVE A BEST FRIEND(S)

Outdated

As you all know that my current blog is beyond the status of what I called "DEAD" as there are just TOO MANY THINGS & HAPPENINGS to blog.

Pictures & videos everywhere scattered in my laptop.

I don't know when I'll revive my blog with all my happenings and hoping I can remember all of em starting the end of my 3rd Semester.

Till then..this blog will be shut down temporarily. Thank you & Goodbye!!

Disappointment

On the 28th July 2009, the emo-ness had caught me red-handed as my 3rd semester results were released.

After looking at my results, to be honest, the tears from my eyes were nearly open wide where it will flow down on my face with full of disappointment. I tried my best to score the weakest subject even I have to stay up real late to burn the midnight oil or do anything in order to pass. However, those effort inclusive of my dear classmates who had helped me throughout the subject had gone down to HELL as it wasn't good enough for me to succeed it.

Throughout my 3 semesters degree course, this particular subject namely Programming Technique killed me the most in coursework. Many of you may ask me what the hell is this subject. Well, to describe it in a human language, is a programming subject. In our world, there are many types of programming languages such as Java, Assembly Language, C, C++ and many more. This subject is C language and many of my seniors who repeated the subject had advice me in advance to score well and I felt an idiot falling into the same trap as them.

Failing is NOT an option after high school. Especially those education levels where you need to request money from your parents to pay and return them with a failure and depressing grades. I feel disgrace and hopeless to my family. I maybe the youngest and only child studying in my family, but it ain't easy with so much pressure. Currently, the results had pulled my CGPA down real bad(not less than 2.5).

I pray and beg to god for the subject to PASS ONLY, sadly it wasn't strong enough. Friends(You know who you are) even sacrifice few seconds just to pray for me having good results. Every seconds count people and I feel awful just to ask people to pray for me but I truly thank you guys a lot.

Next monday onwards, I'll be starting my 4th semester and will be seing the rest of my classmates again. With 3 new challenging subjects and re-taking with bunch of stress on the same subject again. I'll make sure I'll improve my CGPA in this upcoming semester and score well in all the 4 subjects.

Till then....e-m-o-i-n-g now....

Dead?

Is my blog currently dead?? People has been asking me to blog blog BLOG my happenings. To be honest, I got the "laziness" disease so if you wanna know my happenings, just gotta wait till one fine day. =D

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